August 7th, 2026
The Wrecking One
The Undoing one
The literal mind blowing one
The life/human altering one
The one where I was all alone, apart from God being there, although I didn’t feel Him
The one with the silence, on His end
With the mess, chaos and interruptions
The depressive one
The low, I didn’t know know where I was
Didn’t know how to get out
Incapable of understanding the concept of how to use my feet
Functioning wasn’t a thing
Autopilot was on airplane mode
And I couldn’t stand what was going on
The Season I Was Being Pruned In
The season where olives become oil
Pressing becomes a testimony
And all for His Glory
A place I didn’t think was possible to come out of
Yet was so desperate to be free of
Not understanding the point, reason, or even justification of it
But something I realized, even there, that would be beneficial somehow to others in the future
Maybe This Is It, This Is The Reason
The why
Because of this
To get it out to that person who is stuck, helpless, confused
I was so angry and frustrated with God
I remember asking Him several times for help with the baby
There once was a time where her would awaken just with the change in the breath
Slithering out of the bed and tipy toes were rookie mistakes
The air moving past me sent alerts to his brain
Boom – awake – before I could even even think of what day it was
Never making it to the other side of the door
But in the absolute trenches of those moments, I asked, pleaded for His divine intervention
For spiritual baby earplugs, the unfeeling of movments, the hope for him to simply keep sleeping
Help to fall out of the sky
Nope, Just Crickets !
Oh yes
Everyday, everytime I would pray
I felt like I was having some kind of Job moment
Of course, differently
No divine help, my husband wasn’t helping due to his job, and a baby that lived on me
just like my skin, but . . . heavier
It was a never ending funeral, dying but still alive
And my husband, like I mentioned has a job where he is outside all day, doing physical labor (more like slave work), and exposed to heat, and not from the sun
So, no, he’s normally not in a place to get home and take over as much as I’d hope he could
A testimony in process and in prayer.
I’ve prayed for better job for him, but also nothing, yet
So, Yes, I Understand You
I know those shoes very well
But I pray for this person
This person that is “here”
That the Lord dispatch his strengthening, ministering and fighting angels
Guiding you out of this
Maybe this is your first time or a confirmation to fast
To fast for this, the here, the now, the future, the impossible
And the Word says in
Matthew 17:20 :
“He replied, “Because you have so little faith. Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you.”
Your faith is what moves God
I pray for an over flow of faith and trust in Him
For a hunger and thirst for His presence and His Word
An urgent desperation for Him
For your salvation
That your heart be open to Him
And he overwhelm and invade your heart with His love
And that you longer have any interest for what this world have to offer
There Is A Reward Coming
and it’s coming
And I can’t wait
To hear him say
“Well done my Good and Faithfull servant” – Matthew 25:21
So keep on keepin’ on
Because no matter the situation, the problem
The journey or the mountain
He will allow things to happen
But to sharpen us
Keep your eyes fixed on Him
Going back is not an option
For He is Good, all the time !
Amen